What a week it has been. Today has hit me kinda hard.... news after news just flows and none of it is things i want to hear. I think that i'm supposed to be alone...
i think this is karma getting me back for the wrongs i've done. like this is a weird circle of events that just revolve around guys for me... like remember how i spoke of the guys in my first blog? ok well it's happened again just 2 different guys... i get to be the lover and the pretender at the same time.. god this isn't even making sense
why is everyone moving on without me? everyone's getting engaged or into a serious relationship and i'm the one that got stuck with a relationshit. i won't be getting over cody anytime soon, unfortunately. me and dave are "talking" i guess you'd say... i like how that friendship has livened up recently ...although i don't know how i feel about him. i used to be so crazy about him. i'm also talking (not talking talking though) to this other dude that i cannot disclose information about... he lives in enterprise though. definitely cannot have him though... why do i bother. then theres this other dude in ft. walton that i've had my eye on for a couple of months that i met on singlesnet.... he seems cool but i'm not really feelin it just yet. alex is engaged according to his myspace that i checked on today (he isn't on my friends list so i have to remember the link.) That was hard for me to take in.... i don't have time to worry about him though. that's just old painful memories now.
"that's just old painful memories now" a phrase that i'm getting to use alot nowadays....
someone help me? i hate being like this... just wait, the best part is yet to come though
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