sorry? no ho

OK, 18 now. and things just keep gettin better and better. not.
first of all, being 18 doesn't feel any different... just as i suspected. and all it basically means is that i can be tried as an adult, get into sex shops and other places that i couldn't legally be inside of before and buy cigarettes and other tobacco products in florida... oh and date older men.. legally. anyways, i've only been 18 for like 4 days now. i spent most of the 20th with cody and the following night... fun fun. not sure why though, i guess i went expecting something that wasn't going to happen after all. i want him back so bad =( i want to not love him so much, i want to not care...
i got my first speeding ticket on the 21st! i was doing 20 miles over the speed limit and i believe that'd be called wreckless driving. it had just turned into a 35mph zone and i was doing 55mph freshly off the interstate practically. i told dad and he isn't mad at all, surprisingly. he even volunteered to pay it himself but to not tell mom of any of this... i didn't try to talk him out of it. =)
christmas is tomorrow and it doesn't even feel like winter here... nothing feels the way it's supposed to anymore.

oh and how come crazy sex scenes only show up in movies when you're parents are around? unbelievable awkwardness and shit... yeah